IF ONLY

in between 

I do not want to live in regret.  No sir I don't.  Yet, I am still the biggest procrastinator in the world so it seems.  Where does that come from?  I am not sure.  There is so much fun to be had, art to be made, snow angles to make (yes, I still make them) and ...... oh yes, good wine to drink.  But I feel like I am in between.....things, life, the universe and everything.

It has been so cold for so long but daylight gets longer.  I keep promising myself that I will get up early and greet the day wide awake and ready to create something wonderful.  Alas, I have fallen into a chain of morning events that keeps my course the same.  I need change but I know I am the only one that can do it.  So I sit in between.......young and old, brave yet afraid, uncertain yet knowing.  In between.

It isn't good enough to be in my minds eye sitting quietly knowing what needs to be done but wanting to hibernate instead.  One thing is certain though.  When it is my time IF ONLY will be the last thing on my mind.

BTW....this is a picture that I took and have decided to make a quilt out of it.  I am thinking of a one woman art show called IN BETWEEN.  I think that is a good idea.  Don't you?